Half Way There !! Yeay

Today I will go to bed and begin my next 20 weeks!! Yeay! I am half way thru my pregnancy. I feel the baby more and more every day and I am amazed. I started my video again and I feel good. I am still doing small weights as well cause I don't want my arms to be flabby. Today it kind of hit me that we will have a baby in our home in less than 5 months!! That is crazy and scary and exciting and well exciting!! I thank God every day when I feel that baby moving. I know this is from Him..

And the Weight is on

I know I carrying a child and I should not care about my weight, however I do.. So I have not really been walking or doing my video . Thanksgiving has come and gone and I was deathly afraid to get on the scale, but I did. I had to see where I was. I am now 5 months pregnant and I am weighing in at 164. I have gained a total of 14 pounds. I guess that is not too bad. My goal is was to not gain more than 25 total, however Josiah seems to wants meat and I can't say no :( If I keep eating the way I am eating I'm sure I may pass up my 25 lbs. I am not eating huge portions for my meals, cause I can't but I am eating very frequently. Every 3 hours I am eating something. It is hard cause I am really hungry. I try to carry something with me that will help me when I am "starving". I still feel great and my energy is now way up. I am not feeling as tired anymore. I am still moving but not daily as I was. Mike and I go for long walks to the mall or swap meet and walk for about 2 hours which is great exercise for me. The plan is to try to stay in some control so when baby gets here, I can go back to my routine. That is the plan, however I am aware it may take some time and adjusting to get there, but I know in time if I determined it will happen. Thank you Lord again for helping me stay in control.

Feeling the baby

I am 18 weeks today and I swear I feel the baby more and more now. I was not really sure until this afternoon. This morning I felt alot harder flutters and a few pokes, but nothing hard. The flutters always come hard when I eat, so after I ate this morning, I kinda knew it was him. So I just enjoyed. All day I seemed to be more aware of them. I had a schedule US to see the baby with Henry and Liv but they could not make it so I decided to go anyways. As the tech was doing the US, the baby kicked and I saw and felt it!! It was amazing!! I now know that I am not imagining it!! I am so excited for this little guy!! I am now waiting for Mike to be able to feel, soon I hope.

It's a Boy!!

Yup yup yup it's a Boy!! So today we got back from San Francisco, celebrating our 9th anniversary. We had our ultrasound today and got to see our little one. Last night I had a dream that they handed me the baby and the baby was wrapped in a blue blanket... So I told Mike that morning and Angie too and she said.. maybe it is a boy.. and  Well... the tech said here is one leg, here is two leg and here is the third leg!!! It's a Boy!! Mike lit up so much it was cute:) So yes I am excited for the arrival of my son ... wow that seems so awesome to say.  I am feeling great, no sickness and my energy is somewhat picking up. Our new due date is April 22nd. He is a little bigger than what we thought. It is so much more real now to know that there is a little baby boy inside of me . Yeay so excited to meet Josiah Michael Maestas. Can't come soon enough!!

Lord I am so so grateful for your mercy and your gift that you have blessed me with. Thank you

Moving Right along

Well my plan is still in tact. I have walked everyday and I am eating and snacking on things that I should be having. It has been tough though cause I want so many bad things. I have had a really busy weekend with parties, and halloween and I seem to forget that I am pregnant and that I need to take it easy. So Monday I did just that, I did nothing all day and it felt great. Last week I bought a baby doppler. It is a device you can hear that babys heart beat at any time. I know this pregnancy is in Gods hands, but God knows my heart and my fears. At anytime at all I can hear the baby if I want to. So far I used it a few times. It makes it hard cause I still have no symptoms and until I get a growing belly, this device will do. I heard the baby this morning and wow is it music to my ears :) It makes me so greatful for this miracle and for God's promise to me.

Get it Under Control Jess !!

Okay so I posted a month ago that I was pregnant. Yeay!! I am now 15 weeks pregnant and baby is doing well. We have since heard the heartbeat and seen the baby. I am still overwhelmed with amazement at times at the miracle that God has placed in my belly. Meantime... I have lost all sense of CONTROL!!
Let me explain... Since I had Gastric bypass , I changed lots of habits. No soda, sweets, red meat or fast food whatsoever.. Well, since pregnant... All i want is soda, sweets and fast food and red meat!! I can't understand why my body is is "need" of these things. It would not be such an issue if I had a bit of control, but I seem to have lost that as well. I understand that being pregnant I need to take in a certain amount of calories, and I understand that it needs to be good calories. Don't get me wrong, I am still eating small portions, but I am eating more frequently and snacking on things that I do not need! I am once again buying items too that I should not be eating. Back when I was 9 weeks prego, the doc put me off of exercise cause I was spotting. Since then I no longer have spotting and am now able to exercise again. Boy was it tough! Last night after talking with Michael, I set my mind to get a routine established again and to find my self. So this morning I was determined to get a routine down again. I got up with Mike and ate a small begal. Then I had a egg and 2 pieces of toast and I headed out for a 2 mile walk. It took some pushing, but I did it and I felt great. I don't want to push it too much and I want to work my way up to a maybe 4 miles or so. Then after I got back I crashed! I was sooo tired I could not stay awake. I then woke up hungry of course and ate a nice healthy sandwich and then had an apple for a snack. I am gonna try really hard this week to stay on a routine. Since I am home now, it seems to be a little harder cause the fridge is right here. I just need to remember to stay focused on my goal for a healthy pregnancy and a healthy me. I want to be able to go back to my old routine of diet and exercise and get the baby weight off. As of right now, I have gained a total of 8 lbs! That is a little hard to see but I accept it and I okay with it. I am so grateful for what God is doing in my life. I sit back in amazement sometimes and think about what he has done in our lives. This little miracle is for His Glory and to Glorify HIM only and if I am a tool, so be it :)

Blessings,
Jess

You Make all Things NEW!!

Okay my friends, so much has happened in the past month that I could not share until now. So here it goes!  August 12th we found out we are pregnant again!! We are so over whelmed with JOY!!  We had to wait until my first doc appt which was scheduled September 17th, so if you can imagine the craziness going thru my mind!! During that month I tried to stay on top of my exercises, I stopped running but I was still walking up to 5 miles a day! My hunger is sooo uncontrollable. I feel like I am a bottomless pit. Mentally I am letting my body tell me when to eat and what to eat.
Let me tell you , I am still not able to eat more than a cup at a time, but I can eat every 2- 3 hours and I am!  I am trying to stick to things I can have, fruit and of course sugar free stuff, along with Bean and cheese burritos which I can't get enough of.  I know what my body can eat and what it can not! I'm not used to eating this much. Usually before if I was hungry I would ignore and wait till my next meal, this I can not ignore, it literally burns and I need to eat ! I am so grateful though, I have no morning sickness what so ever! Which can be a bad thing for a bari patient, because we can not eat too much at once so if we are sick the baby does not get what they need. Praise God that I am not sick and can eat!! No morning sickness also scared me cause I had no symptoms of a baby inside of me...

Finally my appt date got here September 17th and guess what??? They cancelled it cause the doc was out!!! Oh MY GOSH!!! I lost it!! As it is I am an emotional hormonal wreck and stress case cause I was scared the same thing was gonna happen and baby stop growing like last time... So they scheduled it for Monday the 20th!! A WHOLE WEEKEND  OF INSANITY!!! Saturday came and I had spotting!! More to freak out about. I kept praying Lord, not again... Please not again! I felt like I was on a roller coaster I did not want to be on.. Called the doc and they said normal to just rest and not to over do it till my appt. That night I prayed the hardest prayer I could ever, LORD YOUR WILL NOT MINE!!! Do you know how hard that is to pray for when your hearts desire in right in front of you and you have no control???? HARD!!!

But I had to realize (after Mike and my friends talked me down the ledge), that I am not in control. Why would I want anything else but God's will??  So Monday finally came and my goodness was I anxious... My blood pressure was soooo high! I was telling the nurse to please wait till after to take it and she said ok.. Doc came in after like 30 min or at least that is how I felt... He did his check and then the ultra sound... He told Mike, come  here look at this... then I opened my eyes.. LOL .... Praise God there is a baby in there and I am not crazy!!! Tears, tears and more TEARS!!! I was sooo over joyed to see that baby in there and the strong, strong heart beat!! 176 beats!!! The doctor said there is the baby and he said lets see if we can make the baby move, and the baby Moved!!!! OMGosh it was amazing!!!!!

FIRST PICTURE OF OUR MIRACLE!! 

So here is what I have learned... Patience, God's timing not mine and peace!! I feel great and I am still praying Lord your will not mine...

Lord, I am so overwhelmed with amazement of your hands. You are truly an amazing God and know all things. Thank you for your miracle in our lives. Thank you for fulfilling your promise. This baby is truly your miracle. This baby is yours God and not mine. Thank you for your heart . Praise to you only God, and thank you , thank you for your promise!!  You make all things New Lord, Thank you for moving me forward into a new path. I will follow you forward!

Blessings my friends,
Jess