You Make all Things NEW!!

Okay my friends, so much has happened in the past month that I could not share until now. So here it goes!  August 12th we found out we are pregnant again!! We are so over whelmed with JOY!!  We had to wait until my first doc appt which was scheduled September 17th, so if you can imagine the craziness going thru my mind!! During that month I tried to stay on top of my exercises, I stopped running but I was still walking up to 5 miles a day! My hunger is sooo uncontrollable. I feel like I am a bottomless pit. Mentally I am letting my body tell me when to eat and what to eat.
Let me tell you , I am still not able to eat more than a cup at a time, but I can eat every 2- 3 hours and I am!  I am trying to stick to things I can have, fruit and of course sugar free stuff, along with Bean and cheese burritos which I can't get enough of.  I know what my body can eat and what it can not! I'm not used to eating this much. Usually before if I was hungry I would ignore and wait till my next meal, this I can not ignore, it literally burns and I need to eat ! I am so grateful though, I have no morning sickness what so ever! Which can be a bad thing for a bari patient, because we can not eat too much at once so if we are sick the baby does not get what they need. Praise God that I am not sick and can eat!! No morning sickness also scared me cause I had no symptoms of a baby inside of me...

Finally my appt date got here September 17th and guess what??? They cancelled it cause the doc was out!!! Oh MY GOSH!!! I lost it!! As it is I am an emotional hormonal wreck and stress case cause I was scared the same thing was gonna happen and baby stop growing like last time... So they scheduled it for Monday the 20th!! A WHOLE WEEKEND  OF INSANITY!!! Saturday came and I had spotting!! More to freak out about. I kept praying Lord, not again... Please not again! I felt like I was on a roller coaster I did not want to be on.. Called the doc and they said normal to just rest and not to over do it till my appt. That night I prayed the hardest prayer I could ever, LORD YOUR WILL NOT MINE!!! Do you know how hard that is to pray for when your hearts desire in right in front of you and you have no control???? HARD!!!

But I had to realize (after Mike and my friends talked me down the ledge), that I am not in control. Why would I want anything else but God's will??  So Monday finally came and my goodness was I anxious... My blood pressure was soooo high! I was telling the nurse to please wait till after to take it and she said ok.. Doc came in after like 30 min or at least that is how I felt... He did his check and then the ultra sound... He told Mike, come  here look at this... then I opened my eyes.. LOL .... Praise God there is a baby in there and I am not crazy!!! Tears, tears and more TEARS!!! I was sooo over joyed to see that baby in there and the strong, strong heart beat!! 176 beats!!! The doctor said there is the baby and he said lets see if we can make the baby move, and the baby Moved!!!! OMGosh it was amazing!!!!!

FIRST PICTURE OF OUR MIRACLE!! 

So here is what I have learned... Patience, God's timing not mine and peace!! I feel great and I am still praying Lord your will not mine...

Lord, I am so overwhelmed with amazement of your hands. You are truly an amazing God and know all things. Thank you for your miracle in our lives. Thank you for fulfilling your promise. This baby is truly your miracle. This baby is yours God and not mine. Thank you for your heart . Praise to you only God, and thank you , thank you for your promise!!  You make all things New Lord, Thank you for moving me forward into a new path. I will follow you forward!

Blessings my friends,
Jess