Down to the Nitty Gritty Last days

So here I am up at 2 am cause I can't sleep as usual. I am so tired at this point of my pregnancy. It has been so long since I have written in here and I don't want to start off with complaining....

So here I am at 40 weeks pregnant! Wow what an amazing journey this has been. God has certainly taken Mike and I from one extreme to the next. Just yesterday I was driving in the car and I heard a song in my CD player that reminded me so much of when I miscarried last year. It brought  back so much heart ache but at the same time I was able to rejoice cause God carried me thru that. It is amazing how God can instantly turn things around. My heart does rejoice cause I know our miracle is almost here.  Since at the end I am so anxious to see and meet our little guy. I know he will be perfect no matter what he looks like. 

As of today I stand at 40 pounds gained! At first this was really hard for me and I do struggle with that number being so large, however,  I am healthy and Josiah is healthy and growing and that is all that matters. My blood pressure is still excellant and has not been effected at all by this pregnancy. I was a little worried about it at first cause of my history.  Once Josiah gets here it is back to the grind! I mean it, I have a plan in waiting and can't wait to get this weight off. I know it will take some time, but I am very eager to excersise again and to eat right. As of right now all I want is bad stuff. I don't know if it is pregnancy hormones, but my body can tolerate so much more sweets and food which scares me. Although again once he gets here I have a plan. I need to have a plan cause if I don't then I plan to fail. I am just praying and relying on God that He is with me and knows exactly what I need in my life.

I  am on the way to a new journey. A new journey of mother hood and a new eating journey. I know what God has been my strength in all this and I need to remember to keep Him as my strength. I can not and will never be able to do this on my own.  Lord you are my strength and I thank you for what you have brought me to and thru. Please help me to remember to look to you !

Oh how life is quickly changing !

So here I am 34 weeks pregnant and 30 lbs later, I am feeling at this point, excited and anxious! I can not express how greatful I am to God for this awesome experience that I am able to partake in. We are truly blessed and these past couple of weeks it has been shown. In the past two weeks, we have had two baby showers and so many gifts given to us, Josiah is set and ready to come.  The room is set up, the clothes are washed and put away, now all we need is a baby!! April 22nd is quickly approaching !

Today we hiked up the hill behind our house. It was beautiful to see all of the flowers growing. The weather was great and the breeze was just right. We wanted to do pictures there since we had spent alot of time there prior to the pregnancy. It was a little bit of a hike, but I made it and was very happy I did. Becky got some great shots of us and I am ever so greatful! Here are some of them !

Long Tiime !!

So it has been a while since I posted last.. Let us do some catch up.
Josiah is still growing well as so am I. I have kind of gave in to the crazy eating that this baby wants. I am 29weeks and 5 days and I am feeling great. My total weight gain so far is a scary 26 pounds!! It seems so much to me, but I would gain 50 just to be sure I have a healthy baby boy!  We have had a few 3D ultrasounds and the little guy is a stubborn one. He is always with his hands in front and his feet up. So we got a few good pictures but not very many. He does have my nose I must say. We can not wait to see him, I am so overjoyed when i think about what he will be like, where we were at this point last year and how far God has truly brought us. To feel this little miracle inside of me is amazing.  I am very blessed that God has given us this miracle. Mean time his room is being finished, it looks so amazing! He is going to be one spoiled kid:) Thank you for all the prayers and love. God is truly amazed us this past year.

Update on the Belly

Well here I am. I survived the holidays, however I think I ate too much. It is not that I am eating too much at a meal, but to much too often in my opinion. Anyways, I am now into my 6th month of my pregnancy. I am 25 weeks and I feel great. My total weight gain so far has just hit 20 lbs. I am weighing exactly what I weighed last christmas. How do I feel about it?? Well at first I was scared cause mentally this is hard to see the scale go up. However I know how to eat and I know that once Josiah is here and stops telling me to eat McDonalds every morning, then I will be fine!! LOL . It really blows my mind that I crave things I never had for over a year. I do have a plan when he arrives. The plan is to still try to get back on some kind of routine once I hit 6 weeks and I am cleared. As of right now, I have not been walking or anything. I was doing an excersise video, but with holidays here I kind of got distracted with Tamales in my fridge. But... I am on the go all day doing lots of things and I am not just sitting which helps. These last 3 months, I really do need to start walking again or the video to help me with labor, which by the way frightens me to death!! But I know that God has put this baby in my belly and that He is in control over it all. I need to just keep remembering that. Today as I turn 31 years old, I am not sad as usual. I used to get sad cause I saw every year slipping by and I saw it as getting old with no children. But low and behold, here we are at 31 years old ready to welcome this little miracle in our lives. I can not begin to express how over joyed I am today and this year. I think now that God knew exactly what I needed and when I needed it. Maybe as a 31 year old I have more patience for a baby , who knows. But what ever reason,  I truly know God timing is always on track, even if it is not in time with our own.
Michael, Josiah and I are all living and walking miracles.  I can't wait to tell him the story!

Be Blessed my friends . Wait on HIm cause His timing is everything.

Half Way There !! Yeay

Today I will go to bed and begin my next 20 weeks!! Yeay! I am half way thru my pregnancy. I feel the baby more and more every day and I am amazed. I started my video again and I feel good. I am still doing small weights as well cause I don't want my arms to be flabby. Today it kind of hit me that we will have a baby in our home in less than 5 months!! That is crazy and scary and exciting and well exciting!! I thank God every day when I feel that baby moving. I know this is from Him..

And the Weight is on

I know I carrying a child and I should not care about my weight, however I do.. So I have not really been walking or doing my video . Thanksgiving has come and gone and I was deathly afraid to get on the scale, but I did. I had to see where I was. I am now 5 months pregnant and I am weighing in at 164. I have gained a total of 14 pounds. I guess that is not too bad. My goal is was to not gain more than 25 total, however Josiah seems to wants meat and I can't say no :( If I keep eating the way I am eating I'm sure I may pass up my 25 lbs. I am not eating huge portions for my meals, cause I can't but I am eating very frequently. Every 3 hours I am eating something. It is hard cause I am really hungry. I try to carry something with me that will help me when I am "starving". I still feel great and my energy is now way up. I am not feeling as tired anymore. I am still moving but not daily as I was. Mike and I go for long walks to the mall or swap meet and walk for about 2 hours which is great exercise for me. The plan is to try to stay in some control so when baby gets here, I can go back to my routine. That is the plan, however I am aware it may take some time and adjusting to get there, but I know in time if I determined it will happen. Thank you Lord again for helping me stay in control.

Feeling the baby

I am 18 weeks today and I swear I feel the baby more and more now. I was not really sure until this afternoon. This morning I felt alot harder flutters and a few pokes, but nothing hard. The flutters always come hard when I eat, so after I ate this morning, I kinda knew it was him. So I just enjoyed. All day I seemed to be more aware of them. I had a schedule US to see the baby with Henry and Liv but they could not make it so I decided to go anyways. As the tech was doing the US, the baby kicked and I saw and felt it!! It was amazing!! I now know that I am not imagining it!! I am so excited for this little guy!! I am now waiting for Mike to be able to feel, soon I hope.