Okay so I posted a month ago that I was pregnant. Yeay!! I am now 15 weeks pregnant and baby is doing well. We have since heard the heartbeat and seen the baby. I am still overwhelmed with amazement at times at the miracle that God has placed in my belly. Meantime... I have lost all sense of CONTROL!!
Let me explain... Since I had Gastric bypass , I changed lots of habits. No soda, sweets, red meat or fast food whatsoever.. Well, since pregnant... All i want is soda, sweets and fast food and red meat!! I can't understand why my body is is "need" of these things. It would not be such an issue if I had a bit of control, but I seem to have lost that as well. I understand that being pregnant I need to take in a certain amount of calories, and I understand that it needs to be good calories. Don't get me wrong, I am still eating small portions, but I am eating more frequently and snacking on things that I do not need! I am once again buying items too that I should not be eating. Back when I was 9 weeks prego, the doc put me off of exercise cause I was spotting. Since then I no longer have spotting and am now able to exercise again. Boy was it tough! Last night after talking with Michael, I set my mind to get a routine established again and to find my self. So this morning I was determined to get a routine down again. I got up with Mike and ate a small begal. Then I had a egg and 2 pieces of toast and I headed out for a 2 mile walk. It took some pushing, but I did it and I felt great. I don't want to push it too much and I want to work my way up to a maybe 4 miles or so. Then after I got back I crashed! I was sooo tired I could not stay awake. I then woke up hungry of course and ate a nice healthy sandwich and then had an apple for a snack. I am gonna try really hard this week to stay on a routine. Since I am home now, it seems to be a little harder cause the fridge is right here. I just need to remember to stay focused on my goal for a healthy pregnancy and a healthy me. I want to be able to go back to my old routine of diet and exercise and get the baby weight off. As of right now, I have gained a total of 8 lbs! That is a little hard to see but I accept it and I okay with it. I am so grateful for what God is doing in my life. I sit back in amazement sometimes and think about what he has done in our lives. This little miracle is for His Glory and to Glorify HIM only and if I am a tool, so be it :)
Blessings,
Jess
