just some pictures

Picture of us and all the children at the Pumpkin patch. We had a great time !

70lbs!

Today I have hit my 70lbs. Very exciting. I have also reached a new size. I am in a size 14 now. I have not been in a 14 for a very long time. I can not even remember the last time I was. I feel great. I still feel big, although I am changing I still feel big. It is weird to me. I hear people all the time telling me how different I look and that they can not reconize me, but it is hard to believe. I feel like I look the same. I am trying to grasp that I am not the same size.
Not by my strength but by HIS only.

My hips

Last night I was lying in bed on my back and I felt my hips for the first time in a long time. I actually could feel my hip bone. I was like Whoa!! I think my weight is slowing down, but I do feel my clothes getting bigger, but the scale does not change much. This week I have lost 1 more pound but it can change tomorrow. Sometimes I stay at one for a long time then I just drop... That is all for today.. I feel good.

Attention ??

So is it weird to struggle with Attention? Let me explain. When I was younger, I was thinner. I always loved the attention from boys especially. So as I gained weight I never really lost my confidence and I still thought I was pretty but I knew that boys werent looking at me the same any more, which I was okay with. Well now, I have a bit of a hard time cause in my mind I still am the same person a big confident woman, but in reality I am shrinking and the attention is kind of weird now. It is either has to do with my age and maturity or it has to do with self image. I think I suffer from a little bit of both. Self image.. as weird as it may seem, I really still see a big woman. Today I was looking for a shirt and I told the lady I needed a 2x out of habit and she looked and me and said no honey that is too big for you.. I thought .. huh?? too big !! I have not heard that in a long time. Self image is weird and the attention is weird. The other thing I struggle with is that people say I change from week to week.. Am I really changing that much? I don't think so but then again, I see myself everyday. Either way ,I am happy and I feel amazing :)

65 lbs !

Wow !! I have hit 65 lbs !! I need to keep up on my excersise .. I feel like I slacking. Next week will be better .

62 lbs and counting !!

62 lbs today ! Still trucking on and moving. Feel like I snacking too much, I need to eat more protein!!

Blessings

So I have been saying that I have no clothes and I was kind of sad cause I don't want to go out and spend all this money cause I am shrinking. So yesterday I asked Marisa to ask her roomate Kim who is my size if she had any clothes she getting rid of if I could look. Marisa said yeah she is having a yard sale, so then she told Kim and Kim pulled out alot of stuff ! WOW!! I never expected that much stuff, but there were jeans and pants and shirts and sweaters and dresses. I was sooo excited. I now have a new wardrobe. Yeah !!

Weekend Food

Okay so we went to my parents and we had a great time. Hung out with my brothers and BBQed. We did something different we had never done before, we played tag football. It was so much fun ! I notice now that since I have weight off, I don't want to be sitting around, I am up and wanting to do things. We had so much fun and I was not huffing and puffing. I was actually enjoying it. I love new traditions, my mom was even playing and I made a touchdown !! Hard part was that my dad makes the best bbq chicken and food that there were way way too many choices. There was fish, chicken, beef ribs, shrimp, beans and pasta salad. All great food. In the end I settled for a chicken wing which I could not pass up and beans and some cheese and a few pastas. I was very satisfied. I had a great weekend. Until next time!

60 lbs Down !

Today I reached my 60lbs ! Wow ! I watch the scale go down and I can't believe it ! I feel awesome ! I am 16 weeks post op! It is weird to here people call me skinny.. I still look at pictures and see me, but I still feel big. It is weird, although I feel awesome and I know I am shrinking, it is just weird to here them say that. I am enjoying my journey though :) Through His strength only, not mine :)