Was it a DREAM?/

Okay so I woke up this morning thinking , it was a dream. Then I found the test and said Nope!! No dream:) Today we saw my doctor. He confirmed our pregnancy and now that makes 7 tests.. and he said I would be okay. My main concern was eating. Since I don't eat that much I wanted to be sure that the baby is getting enough. He said that yes I am fine and just to eat when I am hungry. So now , before when I was hungry I would ignore, now I have to eat something. The plan is to stick to my routine of excersise. However, I am so tired that I am dragging to do it. It is weird cause I have not felt like this in 7 months! So Now we are on a new journey. No sickness, thank goodness cause Lord knows I need all my food to stay down.. My first OB app is February 3rd... So far away!!

Unexpected Miracle!

Where do I start!! Lots of catching up to do. First let me start off and say. My God is a God of miracles. He is clearly showing me that this week and throughout my new journey. This week we have been pushing our excersise routine hard. I was having a hard time not understanding why my weight was not dropping as quickly. I came to terms that I have lost 103lbs and that the rest of it will have to be worked off hard. So I was talking to Michael about how my body was feeling a little weird and that I should take a test just to be sure that I was not pregnant. Was not a big priority cause in the back of my head I just knew it would come out Negative. So we went about our weekend and today (Sunday) after church I came home and had a whole Orange. That my friends is big! I have never been able to eat a whole orange. So we invited our family over for a BBQ cause it was a nice day and we wanted to have chicken. Michael worked in the garage as I went to the market. As I was there I picked up a PG test so I could know for sure and then got what I needed ( including a bag of M&M's , peanut). I came home and took the test and left it there and went to the kitchen to finish my cooking. Well I totally forgot I peed on that stick and went back to clean up and see that it said Negative, and lo and behold it said in BIG Bold Letters... PREGNANT!! I freaked out , ran to the garage and yelled, "MICHAEL!! , THIS THING IS LYING AND SAYING WE ARE PREGNANT!! .. and then I proceeded to the bedroom in a paniced manner. He looked and followed and said well "CONGRATULATIONS!! " I said... wait we need to take another one cause what if this is wrong. So he said take it, but I could not pee right then and there so, we had to wait an hour!! Longest Hour EVER!! Took another one and the other one came out PREGNANT as well. WHOA!! Were we blown away!! Imediatlely I started thinking what if I am not eating enough or what if.. or what if.. or what if... I got scared. So we told our family and Silvia and my mom were both very excited! According to the calendar I will be due in September.

After along evening.. Mike said .." You know lets go get another test from another store and a whole other brand... " I said okay.. We took those three and sure enough, all 3 said I was pregnant! So I think 5 tests in one day is enough to say we are having a BABY!!!

Thank you Lord, for this miracle in our lives. When man said no, you said yes! Thank you God for this journey ... I am so greatful and love you more than words . You are truely a God of Miracles and I will not worry:) It is in your hands..
AMEN

Excersising my life away !

So last night since it was raining Henry and Liv invited us to go on a guest pass to their gym with them. So I did. The gym is so different when you actually want to be there. LOL. So I wanted to make sure I got my run in which I did. I ran a mile, then I did a mile on the eliptical and then I did 2 miles on the bike. I felt awesome! I am really enjoying this excersise thing. I never thought I would say that.. Then last night after all that, I decided that I need to start trying to tighten my stomach up a little. So since I have the ab lounge that my aunt gave me I actually used it last night. I did 4 sets of 20 and oh my.. was I in pain at the last set but I pushed through. I am truely happy.. Thank you Lord for all that you are doing and showing me through this time :)

My Molly is Gone :(

Still hard to believe. My black lab Molly has left us. She passed away last night at 10. We are still not sure what happened. She was sick from one day to the next. I prayed for her and with her and with my mom. I was really upset. I will miss her soo much. She was my friend, my hiking partner literally . When I could not make it up the hill, she came back for me.. I will truely miss her. It breaks my heart to think of her. I do believe that God allows us to have these friendships with our animals and I do believe that one day I will see her again. :) I Love you so much Molly. My aunt sent me this poem and it is so appropriate:

THE RAINBOW BRIDGE

There is a bridge connecting heaven and earth...it is called the rainbow bridge because of its many colors...just this side of the rainbow bridge there is a land of meadows, hills and valleys with lush grass.... when a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this place, there is always food and water and warm spring weather...the old and frail animals are young again, those who are mained are made whole again... they play all day with each other.... there is only one thing missing... they are not with their special person who loved them on earth...so, each day they run and play until the day comes when one suddenly stops playing and looks up! the nose twitches! the ears are up! the eyes are staring! and this one suddenly runs from the group! you have been seen and when you and your special friend meet, you take him or her in your arms and embrace... your face is kissed again and again and again, and you look once more into the eyes of your trusting pet... then you cross the rain bow bridge together.... never again to be separated.

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1.2 miles

So today I told MIke that I wanted to try to run the full trail . He pushed me the last part of the mile and I wanted him to just be quiet !! But, I was praying all the way to the end and I did it!! I also cut 2 minutes off my time !! I was really glad and out of breath! I feel so awesome to run. I can not explain it. I feel like a whole different person! I am so greatful to God for this opportunity at a second chance :) Thank you Lord... You are my strength !

Running

Yesterday I started running. Mike really pushed me. We ran total of 1 mile straight! OH My goodness I felt like I had been slammed into a bus this morning! I felt every muscle in my thighs, arms and calves. But I am determined to run the run trail. If you would have told me that Iwould be running. I would have laughed in your face.. LOL I will try again tomorrow. And I will be biking the pasadena marathon this year !! Yah !!

Frustrating

When I initially decided on surgery, I chose to tell certain people and some not to. Last night I went to a dinner and was a tad bit bothered. One cause I think people think that because I had surgery that I live an easy life , that my weight is just falling off with out trying. Let me correct that thought. Yes my weight comes off , however I work it off as well. And it is by no means in anyway EASY! I have to work my butt off and exercises, I don't get to enjoy the things and the food that many people get to enjoy. I don't have control over what I can eat and what I can't. I am forced to do these things. It is in no way the "easy way out" . I know that it can be discouraging for some and a little frustrating but, this was a decision that I made to gain Self control back into my life. I am very grateful and very pleased with my decision to have the surgery. I in no way regret it. It has been a tool that I have used to the full extent. I exercise and I am active. Could I have done this on my own with out surgery? Probably, but I was unmotivated and just plain lazy. Again I had lacked self control. Once I lost 20 pounds I wanted to get out there and exercises cause I knew it would pay off. There are a lot of Bari patients who gain there weight back cause they don't eat the same way and they go back to habits. I have changed my habits and that is what it is about. Making a lifestyle change and doing it for me and my health. Not cause I want to "look" good but cause I want to FEEL good. I again could never ever do this on my own. I rely on the strength of God and by His strength only. I have to ask everyday for strength not to eat the other stuff. LOL .

I tried to quickly change the conversation last night and not focus so much on me, then as I was eating I felt weird too, But I guess it comes with the territory right?? Now I know why Valeria always said to have other topics to talk about at functions. I told mike last night, quick lets think of things to talk about before we get back to the table cause I don't want to talk about my surgery all night long .. He just laughed and hugged me.. :)

30th bday party!

I have the greatest best friend in the world!! She hosted a wonderful get together for my 30th. Lots of fun and great food and great sugar free cake ! I am so blessed to have her in my life. I Thank God that I have another year of life to celebrate, even though I am 30!! New things are coming.... I can feel it :)

Turning 30 !

So many mixed emotions about today ! One have finally turned 30. Two I feel amazing and three, well there is no three that I can think of ! I imagined that by the time I was 30 I would have this many children and be here and there. Well lo and behold , no children. But.. I feel that God has brought me to a new place of peace. As of right now I am grateful for what I do have. This past 6 months has been a new journey and I am ready and healthy now to conquer what comes my way. I am praying that I continue to be used by God and allow his will. I pray that children be our future :) God's promises are always true!!

Back to the Biking!

New year means new Beginings. So today was the first Monday of the new year and we hopped right back on that bike! We had a few delays due to the holiday. I felt like we did not get much of any excersise in durning the holidays. But we are back on Track. Went to the beach today and road 12 miles. It felt soo good! I was so proud of myself. I am amazed at what I have accomplished so far. The one hill I had a hard time with before, I no longer struggle with! That alone is an accomplishment! I am ready for the marathon! Bring it on! 2010 watch out cause we are coming !! Blessings for the new year my friends!

New Year

So new years was great. I survived all the food and all the candy. I feel as though I still ate too much. I am staying this week at 162. It goes up and down a pound or two daily. Which drives me crazy, but also keeps me accountable. I am excited for the new year and what it will bring. Maybe this year will be a year of great things and I also turn 30 this year. I have many things to be greatful for. Life, family, health and second chances ! Thank you Lord for Second Chances and for being a God of mercy and Love!