You Make all Things NEW!!

Okay my friends, so much has happened in the past month that I could not share until now. So here it goes!  August 12th we found out we are pregnant again!! We are so over whelmed with JOY!!  We had to wait until my first doc appt which was scheduled September 17th, so if you can imagine the craziness going thru my mind!! During that month I tried to stay on top of my exercises, I stopped running but I was still walking up to 5 miles a day! My hunger is sooo uncontrollable. I feel like I am a bottomless pit. Mentally I am letting my body tell me when to eat and what to eat.
Let me tell you , I am still not able to eat more than a cup at a time, but I can eat every 2- 3 hours and I am!  I am trying to stick to things I can have, fruit and of course sugar free stuff, along with Bean and cheese burritos which I can't get enough of.  I know what my body can eat and what it can not! I'm not used to eating this much. Usually before if I was hungry I would ignore and wait till my next meal, this I can not ignore, it literally burns and I need to eat ! I am so grateful though, I have no morning sickness what so ever! Which can be a bad thing for a bari patient, because we can not eat too much at once so if we are sick the baby does not get what they need. Praise God that I am not sick and can eat!! No morning sickness also scared me cause I had no symptoms of a baby inside of me...

Finally my appt date got here September 17th and guess what??? They cancelled it cause the doc was out!!! Oh MY GOSH!!! I lost it!! As it is I am an emotional hormonal wreck and stress case cause I was scared the same thing was gonna happen and baby stop growing like last time... So they scheduled it for Monday the 20th!! A WHOLE WEEKEND  OF INSANITY!!! Saturday came and I had spotting!! More to freak out about. I kept praying Lord, not again... Please not again! I felt like I was on a roller coaster I did not want to be on.. Called the doc and they said normal to just rest and not to over do it till my appt. That night I prayed the hardest prayer I could ever, LORD YOUR WILL NOT MINE!!! Do you know how hard that is to pray for when your hearts desire in right in front of you and you have no control???? HARD!!!

But I had to realize (after Mike and my friends talked me down the ledge), that I am not in control. Why would I want anything else but God's will??  So Monday finally came and my goodness was I anxious... My blood pressure was soooo high! I was telling the nurse to please wait till after to take it and she said ok.. Doc came in after like 30 min or at least that is how I felt... He did his check and then the ultra sound... He told Mike, come  here look at this... then I opened my eyes.. LOL .... Praise God there is a baby in there and I am not crazy!!! Tears, tears and more TEARS!!! I was sooo over joyed to see that baby in there and the strong, strong heart beat!! 176 beats!!! The doctor said there is the baby and he said lets see if we can make the baby move, and the baby Moved!!!! OMGosh it was amazing!!!!!

FIRST PICTURE OF OUR MIRACLE!! 

So here is what I have learned... Patience, God's timing not mine and peace!! I feel great and I am still praying Lord your will not mine...

Lord, I am so overwhelmed with amazement of your hands. You are truly an amazing God and know all things. Thank you for your miracle in our lives. Thank you for fulfilling your promise. This baby is truly your miracle. This baby is yours God and not mine. Thank you for your heart . Praise to you only God, and thank you , thank you for your promise!!  You make all things New Lord, Thank you for moving me forward into a new path. I will follow you forward!

Blessings my friends,
Jess

Weight update

Our crazy schedule has kind of slowed down, so we are back on track. I will be cooking all week and I am so glad to kind of go back to normal.  
Here is where I am today. I am still weighing in at 148 lbs . My goal is to be at 135 and I feel like it is taking FOREVER to get there. I need to increase my running schedule I think and I need to stop snacking on cookies that Daniel keeps bringing home and are calling my name !! So, I am going to step up my game this week and run 4 times this week. I am determined to lose these final pounds. I also need to start training for the marathon. Yes I will be running the LA marathon in March. I know that is so far away, but it will be here sooner then we know it! My goal this month is to really be at 6 miles in running. I know for sure I can do 4.5 cause I have done it, so there are No excuses. So Lord I ask right now, for your strength and encouragement to help me get to my goal. Help me stay focused and help me to not be tempted anymore by the cookies that are calling my name even as I am writing this!! Thank you God for your hands in this. My life and this journey would not ever be possible with out you in it!! I am beyond blessed more than I can ever imagine. You are my rock and my strength, in you all things are possible! All things!!

CARBS GET BEHIND ME!!

Why on earth am I craving CARBS!!! I feel like I want them all the time!!  Lord please help me . Remind me of my self control. I need your strength this week. I feel like the devil is literally attacking me with food.. is that possible??? LOL  REally I feel like that!! Oh well, you ain't gonna win devil, so stop trying, your wasting your time. The Lord is my strength in ALL THINGS!! So there :)

Continued Grace

Today  a friend of mine got married and as I talked with her I realized and was reminded that my God can changed any situation around. He is still the God of miracles as he was in Moses day. HE is still the same God that parted the Red sea. I know sometimes we think that our situations will never change or that the one person you are praying for will never ever see the light. At that time in our lives we have a hard time seeing the sun at the end of the storm. But know this.. When God brings the rain, know there will always be a rainbow at the end. Today I saw that Rainbow as she walked down the isle. I still don't believe all the stories I heard... wink... wink.. but.. I have to believe them in order to See the Miracle on the other side.

I was reminded that Gods Grace is never ending , and that He still does miracles. I know my miracle is coming. I need to stand firm on it and wait. Until then I refuse to let the enemy whisper in my ear, I refuse to give in to his ugly lies. I know my God is a God that full-fills his promises and He does not lie :)

So  my friends, today be encouraged and rely on HIM for all things. Blessings

Back on the Wagon

Why did it feel like my three mile run took forever to complete!!! As I got up this morning, I thought ... I could skip this run and run later. Then I thought, no.. this is how you gained all the weight in the first place, you have to run or do something. I have been soooooo busy this past two weeks that my priorities have been rearranged. Eating out and not running. Yes I am still making good choices, but eating out is not a habit we want to develop again. I ran today anyways and it always feels good after. I feel like I completed something. Not to mention I get to worship as I run.. I know not many of you can work out to " Glorify" or to a slow worship tune, but I CAN!! I love it. It is my time with God, my time to watch everything around me. My time to enjoy his creation and pray and thank Him that I am able to run. So yes I am back on the wagon, I just fell off for two weeks :) I didn't hit my head though!!

Thank you Lord again for your strength, I can not thank you or express again how thankful I am for your mercy, and grace. You truly are a God of second chances and I have experienced that on numerous occasions. Be encouraged my friends:)

VBS 2010

We just ended a huge Vacation Bible School at our church. We had 165 kids on one night. That was amazing!! Worship was awesome and so were the volunteers. I am so privileged to be part of a church that has a heart of serving. It seems like our whole congregation came together and just helped out. God is doing so much. I am blessed beyond words. The tiredness is all worth it in the end. It is so weird how although my body is physically tired, my spirit wants more. I am sooo excited to see how many children come back and visit Friendstown. If we only reached 1 child, it is all worth it.

Thank you Lord for your strength , you are my hands and feet and I am grateful :)

Busy Bee

Wow it has been a while. Lots of stuff going on...
First off... I am still doing good!! I am still losing weight but at a very very slow pace. I have reached 111lbs down! I still can't believe how fast time has gone by. These past couple of weeks, months have been crazy. God is doing lots of things in our lives and I am amazed by His glory every step of the way. God is bringing new things our way and we are excited. One of the things is Children's Ministry. We have been passed the torch of Children Ministry. You see I have been praying for a baby and a miracle , and God sent us 100 babies thru children's church!! We are excited. I look was back at this year and we have so much to be grateful for. Yes my heart still longs to be a mother, and I know God knows that and I know my miracle is coming in some way , shape or form. I just need to remember to rely on Him and remember what my promise is. I know now for sure when I miscarried that God was in control and he is still controlling the situation. Lots of new things coming up in the future and Only He controls that.
As for exercise, I am doing my hardest to stay up on it. We have been so busy with VBS these past weeks that I have been slacking and I need to remember to watch what I eat!! I am still staying in control and I am still maintaining what goes in my mouth. That is the key, I control what goes in my mouth! This week I will be sneaking in a run or two! I really do miss it!!

Remember My friends to stay encouraged. My God has big plans for us, we just need to sit still and wait on HIM.. Blessings
Jess