1.2 miles

So today I told MIke that I wanted to try to run the full trail . He pushed me the last part of the mile and I wanted him to just be quiet !! But, I was praying all the way to the end and I did it!! I also cut 2 minutes off my time !! I was really glad and out of breath! I feel so awesome to run. I can not explain it. I feel like a whole different person! I am so greatful to God for this opportunity at a second chance :) Thank you Lord... You are my strength !

Running

Yesterday I started running. Mike really pushed me. We ran total of 1 mile straight! OH My goodness I felt like I had been slammed into a bus this morning! I felt every muscle in my thighs, arms and calves. But I am determined to run the run trail. If you would have told me that Iwould be running. I would have laughed in your face.. LOL I will try again tomorrow. And I will be biking the pasadena marathon this year !! Yah !!

Frustrating

When I initially decided on surgery, I chose to tell certain people and some not to. Last night I went to a dinner and was a tad bit bothered. One cause I think people think that because I had surgery that I live an easy life , that my weight is just falling off with out trying. Let me correct that thought. Yes my weight comes off , however I work it off as well. And it is by no means in anyway EASY! I have to work my butt off and exercises, I don't get to enjoy the things and the food that many people get to enjoy. I don't have control over what I can eat and what I can't. I am forced to do these things. It is in no way the "easy way out" . I know that it can be discouraging for some and a little frustrating but, this was a decision that I made to gain Self control back into my life. I am very grateful and very pleased with my decision to have the surgery. I in no way regret it. It has been a tool that I have used to the full extent. I exercise and I am active. Could I have done this on my own with out surgery? Probably, but I was unmotivated and just plain lazy. Again I had lacked self control. Once I lost 20 pounds I wanted to get out there and exercises cause I knew it would pay off. There are a lot of Bari patients who gain there weight back cause they don't eat the same way and they go back to habits. I have changed my habits and that is what it is about. Making a lifestyle change and doing it for me and my health. Not cause I want to "look" good but cause I want to FEEL good. I again could never ever do this on my own. I rely on the strength of God and by His strength only. I have to ask everyday for strength not to eat the other stuff. LOL .

I tried to quickly change the conversation last night and not focus so much on me, then as I was eating I felt weird too, But I guess it comes with the territory right?? Now I know why Valeria always said to have other topics to talk about at functions. I told mike last night, quick lets think of things to talk about before we get back to the table cause I don't want to talk about my surgery all night long .. He just laughed and hugged me.. :)

30th bday party!

I have the greatest best friend in the world!! She hosted a wonderful get together for my 30th. Lots of fun and great food and great sugar free cake ! I am so blessed to have her in my life. I Thank God that I have another year of life to celebrate, even though I am 30!! New things are coming.... I can feel it :)

Turning 30 !

So many mixed emotions about today ! One have finally turned 30. Two I feel amazing and three, well there is no three that I can think of ! I imagined that by the time I was 30 I would have this many children and be here and there. Well lo and behold , no children. But.. I feel that God has brought me to a new place of peace. As of right now I am grateful for what I do have. This past 6 months has been a new journey and I am ready and healthy now to conquer what comes my way. I am praying that I continue to be used by God and allow his will. I pray that children be our future :) God's promises are always true!!

Back to the Biking!

New year means new Beginings. So today was the first Monday of the new year and we hopped right back on that bike! We had a few delays due to the holiday. I felt like we did not get much of any excersise in durning the holidays. But we are back on Track. Went to the beach today and road 12 miles. It felt soo good! I was so proud of myself. I am amazed at what I have accomplished so far. The one hill I had a hard time with before, I no longer struggle with! That alone is an accomplishment! I am ready for the marathon! Bring it on! 2010 watch out cause we are coming !! Blessings for the new year my friends!

New Year

So new years was great. I survived all the food and all the candy. I feel as though I still ate too much. I am staying this week at 162. It goes up and down a pound or two daily. Which drives me crazy, but also keeps me accountable. I am excited for the new year and what it will bring. Maybe this year will be a year of great things and I also turn 30 this year. I have many things to be greatful for. Life, family, health and second chances ! Thank you Lord for Second Chances and for being a God of mercy and Love!